I Am So I Will Be 2Limited edition print Paper Print 
by Ryan Louder

Signal Rating: 10/10 — Exceptional
Classification: Hallucinatory

This painting by Ryan Louder is part of a body of work shaped by his neurological condition — Narcolepsy with REM Intrusion Hallucinations, clinically confirmed via MSLT at Guy's Hospital, London. The work contains hallucinatory imagery — geometric form constants, phosphene-like patterns, and perceptual structures consistent with REM intrusion.

Neuroaesthetic markers identified: most complex piece in the batch — a digitally enhanced or mixed-media portrait with extreme layering; tiny figures standing on the subject's forehead (above the eyes); reflections in the irises contain miniature scenes; text fragments layered across the face; a second smaller face emerging from the neck/chest; the eyes are photorealistic against an expressive painted field; multiple scales of reality coexist simultaneously; this is the definitive hallucinatory composition — the Russian-doll self, the miniaturised world inside the eye, the figure on the cranium are precise analogues to the content of REM intrusion where the self is observed from outside and contains interior scenes; the crying red mouth anchors grief while the eyes observe coolly — dissociation and hallucination coexistent

These markers are not deliberate artistic techniques but direct visual recordings of what REM intrusion hallucinations look like. The imagery emerges from neurological experience, not metaphor. Ryan has painted over 2,000 works, with over 1,000 originals sold. Each painting in this collection has been subjected to neuroaesthetic forensic analysis to identify and catalogue the perceptual phenomena present.

A close portrait of a young woman, photorealistic in the eyes but expressively painted elsewhere — her face streaked with what reads as tears or paint runs, red lips parted. Text is layered across her face and chest in pink and yellow-green paint, both covering and emerging from the skin. A small solitary figure stands on her forehead, silhouetted and dark, arms raised. A rectangular form suggestive of a door is drawn in pale gold to her right. The irises contain interior scenes too small to fully resolve. Below her face, a second smaller head is barely legible at the neck. The dark brown-green ground absorbs everything beyond the face.

Materials used:

Oil paint

Details:

• Mixed-media painting on Canvas
• One of a kind artwork
• Size: 107 x 107 x 0.1cm (unframed) / 106.68 x 170.18cm (actual image size)
• Ready to hang
• Signed on the front
• Style: Expressive and gestural
• Subject: People and portraits

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